If
you have hit a deer on the road at dusk;
climbed, shivering, out of your car
with curses to investigate the damage
done, and found it split apart and
steaming
far-flung in the nettle bed, utterly
beyond repair,
then you have seen what is not meant
to be seen,
is packed in cannily, coiled, like
parachute silks,
but unputbackable, out for the world
to witness:
the looping, slicked-up clockspring
flesh’s pink, mauve, arterial red,
and there a still-pulsing web of
royal veins
bearing the bad news back to the
heart;
something broken, something hard,
black,
the burst bowel fouling the meat
exposed for what it is, found
out – as Judas,
ripped from groin to gizzard, was
found
at dawn, on the elder tree, still
tethered to earth
by all the ropes and anchors of his
life.
©
Frances Leviston
From
PUBLIC DREAM
First
published in the TLS, 2006
Reprinted
in the Guardian, 2007